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I found words, words you've probably never heard of but when you do you'll feel what I feel. You will know what I am.

I used to be a kalon. 

I was nothing more; not soul, nor mind, nor love or kindness. 

I was a wicked hurricane. 

I used to be external.

I would egrote, procrastinate, I would wish to get things done but lack the strength to fulfill it.

But not anymore, everyday I wake up ready to go anywhere as long as I can see you there.

Anywhere, even school.

I used to be a uhtceare.

It was endless, I had pills, so many tranquilizers when you were all I needed;

I am not cured, I still stay up some nights but you opiate this hazy head of mine.

I sleep most nights now

My innocence was taken from me long ago, but I have never been a apodyopsis until getting to know you. Until getting to know you from every angle. But I have fully stripped you. You cannot hide from my soul anymore.

I am a novaturient person now

. I want better things, a better life. You've made me want to live better, for you; I want to be better for you. For me too, but also for you.

I balter, but not with dance, with love. I love artlessly, but it's still love. It's all your love and I try.

I feel a certain fernweh for all of my favorite places, I want to take you to them, tell you the stories of them. Engross you with new memories there.

And although I will always be a nyctophilaic you were my light when the darkness was no longer comfortable and I will be forever grateful for you. 

You are my serendipity, you are my nepenthe; you make me feel better, happy even.

And I like touching you, cafuné-ing you, it makes it all so much more real.

I love you.

Srjs.

10:45 p.m.